Hey To All!
Well I am doing it again. Making the huge mistake of taking on a garage sale. Well, this house needs some emptying and I need some money. You guys remember how I got cancer two weeks after I got married? Well I have this credit card I need to pay off still....my wedding credit card. I am still paying on a marriage that lasted eight months and it is almost six years later. Remember how I also got cancer two months after I finished school? Well I have to pay that loan too. I also have hundreds of thousands in medical bills but those I just laugh at and know that one day God will help me. I also have the $200,000 paid up front stem cell transplant that is not covered by insurance in breast cancer patients because it is considered "experimental" I need to get but again that is one I am putting in God's hand. If I am meant to have the procedure, the money will come. At this point it is the only road left to treat my cancer and they have to do it while my cancer is stable. My cancer is stable but I certainly do not have a money tree and I do not pee gold, so like I said, it is up to God. I trust Him inexplicably and I know He will lead me where I need to be.
Sometimes I sit around and wonder what normal people stress about. I wonder what it is like to not have to make life and death decisions almost montly and I wonder what my life would be like had I not been given this road to take. In some ways I love this road. I absolutely love that I get to bring my daughter to school everyday, I get to pick her up from school everyday, and I get to do her homework with her at night. My house may not be as clean as I want it to be but I understand that after five years of chemo what can I possible be expecting from myself. I understand that I put alot of pressure on myself to be the best of the best in every road I take and this road has made it really hard to do just that. Being the best of the best drive drove away some time ago. I have more lust for life at this point and enjoy just being me. I love that I have friends that love me and I love them. I have family that is there when I need them even when I am at my worst. These days I seem to think clearer (some times), love deeper, smile more, I am stronger..I stick up for myself when needed, I have learned to say no (almost to much) and I have learned that my impulsiveness has so many positive qualities included with it. Some in my life kind of hate that about me but really it is one of my favorite qualities. Call me and say meet me ____ and I will be there. I love the thrill of "I didn't plan for this but what the heck".
It has been hard and without HPC I don't know where I would be. One thing for sure is God has His hands around me and leads me where I need to be. His angels surround me and in my times of trial they make their presence known. This summer I will be having two different surgeries. One surgery is part two of my breast reconstruction. It is not a super hard surgery but mine will be a little more recovery then normal because they will be doing a skin graft. They will be taking skin from my back and replacing the burnt unhealthy skin on the left side of my chest so my reconstructed breasts will stay healthy. Plus sometime this summer I will be receiving a hysterectomy. I know I talked about it in one of my last blogs so I won't go into it. After 13 surgeries in 5 years it's weird that I find myself nervous about these to procedures. Maybe because this is the longest between surgeries I have ever had or maybe I just don't want my summer to go down the drain again, plus the last thing I want to happen is my workout schedule to be compromised. It always seems to go down like this...I start working out...suddenly surgery, randiation, or chemo messes me up and I never go back so hopefully for these I will be back to working out in no time...at least that is what I hope for.
Well, that is all I can type for now. it is two o'clock in the afternoon and I am falling asleep typing this so talk to you soon!
IF YOU HAVE ANYTHING YOU WANT TO DONATE TO THE GARAGE SALE CALL ME! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!
225-323-4646
GARAGE SALE
15708 MALVERN HILL
BATON ROUGE, LA 70817
DONATIONS CAN BE PICKED UP BY ME OR DROPPED OFF TO THE GARAGE SALE LOCATION: HOME OF LIZ RADLE PERRAULT
IN SHENANDOAH NEIGHBORHOOD
IF YOU WANT TO COME AND HELP OUT WE WOULD LOVE YOU TO!
PROCEEDS BENEFIT (ME) SHANNON MCALISTER BRIDGES
Well I am doing it again. Making the huge mistake of taking on a garage sale. Well, this house needs some emptying and I need some money. You guys remember how I got cancer two weeks after I got married? Well I have this credit card I need to pay off still....my wedding credit card. I am still paying on a marriage that lasted eight months and it is almost six years later. Remember how I also got cancer two months after I finished school? Well I have to pay that loan too. I also have hundreds of thousands in medical bills but those I just laugh at and know that one day God will help me. I also have the $200,000 paid up front stem cell transplant that is not covered by insurance in breast cancer patients because it is considered "experimental" I need to get but again that is one I am putting in God's hand. If I am meant to have the procedure, the money will come. At this point it is the only road left to treat my cancer and they have to do it while my cancer is stable. My cancer is stable but I certainly do not have a money tree and I do not pee gold, so like I said, it is up to God. I trust Him inexplicably and I know He will lead me where I need to be.
Sometimes I sit around and wonder what normal people stress about. I wonder what it is like to not have to make life and death decisions almost montly and I wonder what my life would be like had I not been given this road to take. In some ways I love this road. I absolutely love that I get to bring my daughter to school everyday, I get to pick her up from school everyday, and I get to do her homework with her at night. My house may not be as clean as I want it to be but I understand that after five years of chemo what can I possible be expecting from myself. I understand that I put alot of pressure on myself to be the best of the best in every road I take and this road has made it really hard to do just that. Being the best of the best drive drove away some time ago. I have more lust for life at this point and enjoy just being me. I love that I have friends that love me and I love them. I have family that is there when I need them even when I am at my worst. These days I seem to think clearer (some times), love deeper, smile more, I am stronger..I stick up for myself when needed, I have learned to say no (almost to much) and I have learned that my impulsiveness has so many positive qualities included with it. Some in my life kind of hate that about me but really it is one of my favorite qualities. Call me and say meet me ____ and I will be there. I love the thrill of "I didn't plan for this but what the heck".
It has been hard and without HPC I don't know where I would be. One thing for sure is God has His hands around me and leads me where I need to be. His angels surround me and in my times of trial they make their presence known. This summer I will be having two different surgeries. One surgery is part two of my breast reconstruction. It is not a super hard surgery but mine will be a little more recovery then normal because they will be doing a skin graft. They will be taking skin from my back and replacing the burnt unhealthy skin on the left side of my chest so my reconstructed breasts will stay healthy. Plus sometime this summer I will be receiving a hysterectomy. I know I talked about it in one of my last blogs so I won't go into it. After 13 surgeries in 5 years it's weird that I find myself nervous about these to procedures. Maybe because this is the longest between surgeries I have ever had or maybe I just don't want my summer to go down the drain again, plus the last thing I want to happen is my workout schedule to be compromised. It always seems to go down like this...I start working out...suddenly surgery, randiation, or chemo messes me up and I never go back so hopefully for these I will be back to working out in no time...at least that is what I hope for.
Well, that is all I can type for now. it is two o'clock in the afternoon and I am falling asleep typing this so talk to you soon!
IF YOU HAVE ANYTHING YOU WANT TO DONATE TO THE GARAGE SALE CALL ME! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!
225-323-4646
GARAGE SALE
15708 MALVERN HILL
BATON ROUGE, LA 70817
DONATIONS CAN BE PICKED UP BY ME OR DROPPED OFF TO THE GARAGE SALE LOCATION: HOME OF LIZ RADLE PERRAULT
IN SHENANDOAH NEIGHBORHOOD
IF YOU WANT TO COME AND HELP OUT WE WOULD LOVE YOU TO!
PROCEEDS BENEFIT (ME) SHANNON MCALISTER BRIDGES
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